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Amy's Quiz [31 Aug 2007|02:33pm]
You have 6 close friends. But Tim is your closest friend.

Heidi knows you the best, so have a long chat with this person and you might find out something important about yourself.

Danny is your lucky star. This person will bring luck (usually unexpedetedly).

You are deeply in love with Jared and your feelings are like the song "I Like Big Butts".


You like Beary , but it is not "meant to be"... kind of like the song " How Can I Live Without You".

The song, " Pink Tux to the Prom" says a lot about how you think, while the song, " Satellite" tells how you feel about life in general.

4 is your lucky number, and it's also a good number of people to tell about this test.
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Shuffle Your Life Away [18 Aug 2007|08:48pm]
Shuffle you life away
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you’re cool...

Finally I have my own ipod to do this with..

Opening Credits: Chariot -Gavin Degraw
Waking Up: Too Bad -Nickelback
First Day At School: On Top -The Killers
Falling In Love: Seasons of Love -RENT
Fight Song: What a Wonderful World -Louis Armstrong (I'm a happy person)
Breaking Up: Carry on Dancing -Savage Garden
Prom: I'm Still Here -Treasure Planet
Proposal: Hands Down -Dashboard Confessional
Life: Our Time Now -Plain White Ts
Mental Breakdown: Don't Go Breaking My Heart -Elton John
Driving: Fly -Hilary Duff
Flashback: Best I Ever Had -Vertical Horizon
Getting back together: But If You Do, It's Better -paniC! athe DisCO
Wedding: When You Wish Upon a Star -Glenn Miller Orchestra
Birth of Child: What a Girl Wants -Christina Aguilara
Final Battle: Masquerade -POTO
Death Scene: The Chronicles of Life and Death -Good Charlotte
Funeral Song: You Constantly Thank God fopr Esteban -paniC! athe DisCO
End Credits: When I'm With You -Simple Plan
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Books2ReadB4IDIE [09 Aug 2007|10:11pm]
  • A Short History of Nearly Everything by Bill Bryson (recommended by Tony)
  • The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
  • Last Exit to Brooklyn by Hubert Selby
  • 1984 by George Orwell
  • For Whom the Bell Tolls by Hemingway
  • Brave New World by Huxley
  • Turn On, Tune In, Drop Out by Leary
  • Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy by Adams
  • An Ice Cream War by Boyd
  • Choke by Chuck Palahnuik
  • The Thousand and One Nights – Anonymous
  • The Unfortunate Traveller – Thomas Nashe
  • The Princess of Clèves –  La Fayette
  • A Tale of a Tub – Jonathan Swift
  • A Modest Proposal – Jonathan Swift
  • The Castle of Otranto – Horace Walpole
  • Confessions – Jean-Jacques Rousseau
  • The Monk – M.G. Lewis
  • The Interesting Narrative – Olaudah Equiano
  • The Adventures of Caleb Williams – William Godwin
  • The Mysteries of Udolpho – Ann Radcliffe
  • Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
  • Emma – Jane Austen
  • Persuasion – Jane Austen
  • The Monastery – Sir Walter Scott
  • Melmoth the Wanderer – Charles Robert Maturin
  • The Private Memoirs and Confessions of a Justified Sinner – James Hogg
  • Last of the Mohicans – James Fenimore Cooper
  • The Hunchback of Notre Dame – Victor Hugo
  • The Life and Adventures of Nicholas Nickleby – Charles Dickens
  • Martin Chuzzlewit – Charles Dickens
  • The Count of Monte-Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
  • Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray
  • Jane Eyre – Charlotte Brontë
  • The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas
  • The Scarlet Letter – Nathaniel Hawthorne
  • Moby-Dick – Herman Melville
  • Uncle Tom’s Cabin; or, Life Among the Lonely – Harriet Beecher Stowe
  • A Tale of Two Cities – Charles Dickens
  • The Marble Faun – Nathaniel Hawthorne
  • Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll
  • Journey to the Centre of the Earth – Jules Verne
  • The Last Chronicle of Barset – Anthony Trollope
  • Little Women – Louisa May Alcott
  • Through the Looking Glass, and What Alice Found There – Lewis Carroll
  • Around the World in Eighty Days – Jules Verne
  • The Enchanted Wanderer – Nicolai Leskov
  • The Red Room – August Strindberg
  • The Portrait of a Lady – Henry James
  • The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde – Robert Louis Stevenson
  • News from Nowhere – William Morris
  • Diary of a Nobody – George & Weedon Grossmith
  • Born in Exile – George Gissing
  • The Time Machine – H.G. Wells
  • The Invisible Man – H.G. Wells
  • Some Experiences of an Irish R.M. – Somerville and Ross
  • Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad
  • A Room With a View – E.M. Forster
  • Death in Venice – Thomas Mann
  • A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man – James Joyce
  • Ulysses – James Joyce
  • Night and Day – Virginia Woolf
  • The Last Days of Humanity – Karl Kraus
  • The Green Hat – Michael Arlen
  • The Castle – Franz Kafka
  • The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald
  • One, None and a Hundred Thousand – Luigi Pirandello
  • Blindness – Henry Green
  • The Well of Loneliness – Radclyffe Hall
  • Passing – Nella Larsen
  • Vile Bodies – Evelyn Waugh
  • Call it Sleep – Henry Roth
  • Thank You, Jeeves – P.G. Wodehouse
  • The Postman Always Rings Twice – James M. Cain
  • Threepenny Novel – Bertolt Brecht
  • England Made Me – Graham Greene
  • The House in Paris – Elizabeth Bowen
  • They Shoot Horses, Don’t They? – Horace McCoy
  • Absalom, Absalom! – William Faulkner
  • Gone With the Wind – Margaret Mitchell
  • To Have and Have Not – Ernest Hemingway
  • The Big Sleep – Raymond Chandler
  • Coming Up for Air – George Orwell
  • The Little Prince – Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
  • Caught – Henry Green
  • The Razor’s Edge – William Somerset Maugham
  • The Pursuit of Love – Nancy Mitford
  • The Plague – Albert Camus
  • Love in a Cold Climate – Nancy Mitford
  • I, Robot – Isaac Asimov
  • The 13 Clocks – James Thurber
  • The Killer Inside Me – Jim Thompson
  • The Unnamable – Samuel Beckett
  • The Story of O – Pauline Réage
  • The Last Temptation of Christ – Nikos Kazantzákis
  • The Quiet American – Graham Greene
  • The Talented Mr. Ripley – Patricia Highsmith
  • Giovanni’s Room – James Baldwin
  • Justine – Lawrence Durrell
  • On the Road – Jack Kerouac
  • Jealousy – Alain Robbe-Grillet
  • The Once and Future King – T.H. White
  • The End of the Road – John Barth
  • Saturday Night and Sunday Morning – Alan Sillitoe
  • Things Fall Apart – Chinua Achebe
  • Absolute Beginners – Colin MacInnes
  • Naked Lunch – William Burroughs
  • Rabbit, Run – John Updike
  • How It Is – Samuel Beckett
  • Our Ancestors – Italo Calvino
  • Faces in the Water – Janet Frame
  • Girl With Green Eyes – Edna O’Brien
  • Labyrinths – Jorg Luis Borges
  • A Clockwork Orange – Anthony Burgess
  • The Collector – John Fowles
  • The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath
  • The Girls of Slender Means – Muriel Spark
  • The Graduate – Charles Webb
  • Arrow of God – Chinua Achebe
  • Sometimes a Great Notion – Ken Kesey
  • The Crying of Lot 49 – Thomas Pynchon
  • Things – Georges Perec
  • The River Between – Ngugi wa Thiong’o
  • August is a Wicked Month – Edna O’Brien
  • No Laughing Matter – Angus Wilson
  • A Bend in the River – V.S. Naipaul
  • The Comfort of Strangers – Ian McEwan
  • The Unbearable Lightness of Being – Milan Kundera
  • Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit – Jeanette Winterson
  • Reasons to Live – Amy Hempel
  • An Artist of the Floating World – Kazuo Ishiguro
  • World’s End – T. Coraghessan Boyle
  • The Radiant Way – Margaret Drabble
  • The Trick is to Keep Breathing – Janice Galloway
  • Like Life – Lorrie Moore
  • The Butcher Boy – Patrick McCabe
  • The Virgin Suicides – Jeffrey Eugenides
  • The Stone Diaries – Carol Shields
  • The Invention of Curried Sausage – Uwe Timm
  • Whatever – Michel Houellebecq
  • Everything You Need – A.L. Kennedy
  • Ignorance – Milan Kundera
  • The Book of Illusions – Paul Auster
  • The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time – Mark Haddon
  • Dining on Stones – Iain Sinclair
  • Never Let Me Go – Kazuo Ishiguro
  • Saturday – Ian McEwan
  • Everything is Illuminated – Jonathan Safran Foer
  • In the Forest – Edna O’Brien
  • Middlesex – Jeffrey Eugenides
  • Islands – Dan Sleigh
  • What I Loved – Siri Hustvedt
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Dinner [30 Jul 2007|05:28pm]
Lilly had the milk out. I held out my cup, gesturing that she should pour me some. Instead of pouring my some from the gallon, she poured me some from her own glass. There's something special about that.
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Tame by Ishkap Chain cooe! ; ) [18 Jul 2007|09:01pm]
mynameistannyy <<<tanya aka JealousyHearts aka the artist formerly known as thexxrebellion.

(third letter)
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Writer's Block: By Any Other Name [17 Jul 2007|05:45pm]
If you could rename yourself in real life, what would you choose, and why?

I never knew there was a writer's block! If I had to rename myself.. I think the name Hazel is special. It's also similar to my name now, Heidi. I think the last name Pekter is cool. Hazel Pekter.
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One of those quality quizzes I'm always looking for! [15 Jul 2007|10:54am]
Label the paper #1-4



don't cheat; this is a personality test for yourself

OK here we go

before we start male a wish........write it down at the bottom of ur paper



#1 put the following animals in the order of your choosing:

cow, pig, tiger, sheep, horse



#2 give ONE describing word for each of the following:



dog:

Cat:

Coffee:

Rat:

the Sea:








#3

for each of the colors put down ONE person that u know and thats also knows u:



red:

yellow:

green:

orange:

white:





#4 Write down ur favorite number and favorite day of the week



















Answers to the quiz:







#1) this is how u see ur self in order from least to greatest:

cow: life

pig: money

tiger: courage

sheep: family

horse: carrer







#2) This is how u interpret things:



dog: how u see urself

cat: how u see ur lover

coffee: how u see sex

rat: how u see ur eminies

The sea: how u see ur life







#3) this is hoew u see these ppl:



Green: your twin soul

yellow: friends 4 ever

white: someone who will always be there

red: u r madly in love with this person

orange: ur best friend



#4) the number is how many people u have to have take this quiz and the day of the week is when ur wish will come true



(the quiz should have made u feel better about ur self and should give u some goals)
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As of 7-7-7 [07 Jul 2007|02:51pm]
Things You Might Not Know About Me

Whats your middle name?
Rose. It's one I've grown to liking.

Would you rather get 1,12 or 24 roses?
1

Who do you live with?
My mom, dad, and (come fall when Amy leaves) two younger sisters.

What are you listening to right now?
Regina Spektor - "Fidelity"
Elvis - "A Little Less"

What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
I have no cellphone. I've had them, I just never use them. Texting is expensive. If I had enough money though, I would buy a sidekick!

What was the last thing you ate?
star cut out cookie from sentry

Last person you hugged?
my mom? when I woke up. I always give her hugs.

How is the weather right now?
a tad warmer than perfect.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
kyle - he was calling to cancel plans we had made because he wouldn't have money for it.

What is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
their strongest quality usually jumps out first. nice eyes, great smile. I look for charm.

Favorite type of Food?
healthy, natural

Do you want children?
after I get everything I want out of life, first.

Do you drink?
no

Hair color?
light brown

Eye color?
blue

Do you wear contacts/glasses?
no

Favorite holiday?
st. patricks day (GO IRELAND!)

Favorite season?
spring

Last Movie you Watched?
Brother Bear 2.

What books are you reading?
The Boy Book by e. lockhart (sequel to the boyfriend list)

Piercings?
none, the only piercing I'd consider is an eyebrow one. most people don't like that.

Favorite Movie?
elizabethtown. it has a great soundtrack, so i can enjoy it while I'm doing something else.

Favorite college football Team?
no

What were you doing before filling this out?
just got back from the grocery store

Any pets?
2 rabbits - Kiwi and Millie

Dogs or cats?
Dogs

Favorite Flowers?
lillies

Have you ever loved someone?
romantic? yes, but I don't want them anymore.

Who would you like to see right now?
noelle

Have you ever fired a gun?
no

Do you like to travel by train?
I suppose I would..

If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
Ireland. I want to see all of Europe. Write a traveling novel.

Are you missing someone?
Noelle.

Do you have a tattoo?
never will

Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
no

Are you hiding something from someone?
Not presently

ARE YOU 18?
no

WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?
swirlies on my last one.

DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
yes.

FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
I love Dashboard Confessional. (my mom turned on music to wake me up)

WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
stereo and alarm clock

ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not as much as I'm afraid of someone breaking into my house and killing me in the dark.

FAVORITE SONG(S)?
Jimmy Eat World - "Middle"

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
I have paranoia.

ARE YOU SCARED OF LOVE?
Quite the contrary. I delight in being miserable with love life dilemas.

WHAT IS YOU MAIN NICK NAME.
Heidi. My real name is Heidilyn. (You've been had by a sarcastic remark)

LAST THOUGHT.
Elvis was a studmuffin.
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Possible Birthday Gift Ideas ( for anyone that just doesn't know what in the world I would want ) [28 Jun 2007|05:27pm]
Okay.. Importance is marked by stars.

**Wall Calendar - like a huge calender that takes up a big part of the wall. That would be so sweet. I could keep track of everything..
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found it [24 Jun 2007|08:55pm]
http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.darkhorizons.com/news/jester.jpg&imgrefurl=http://playfulindc.blogspot.com/2006_01_01_archive.html&h=600&w=464&sz=32&hl=en&start=18&um=1&tbnid=AGzm9mpsj8kAPM:&tbnh=135&tbnw=104&prev=/images%3Fq%3Djester%26svnum%3D10%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den

a find indeed
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[08 Jun 2007|12:37pm]
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[08 Jun 2007|12:28pm]
<table width="300" cellpadding="2" cellspacing="0" border="0"><tr><td width="180"><font face="arial" size="-1"><b>Disorder</b></font></td><td width="120"><font face="arial" size="-1"><b>Rating</b></font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/paranoid.html">Paranoid</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#000099" face="arial" size="-1">Low</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/schizoid.html">Schizoid</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#cc0033" face="arial" size="-1">High</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/schizotypal.html">Schizotypal</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#000099" face="arial" size="-1">Low</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/antisocial.html">Antisocial</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#000099" face="arial" size="-1">Low</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/borderline.html">Borderline</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#000099" face="arial" size="-1">Low</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/histrionic.html">Histrionic</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#990099" face="arial" size="-1">Moderate</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/narcissistic.html">Narcissistic</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#990099" face="arial" size="-1">Moderate</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/avoidant.html">Avoidant</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#990099" face="arial" size="-1">Moderate</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/dependent.html">Dependent</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#990099" face="arial" size="-1">Moderate</font></td></tr><tr><td><font face="arial" size="-1"><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/ocd.html">Obsessive-Compulsive</a>:</font></td><td><font color="#000099" face="arial" size="-1">Low</font></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" align="center"><font color="#000000" face="arial" size="-1"><br>-- <a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv">Personality Disorder Test</a> --<br>-- <a href="http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html">Personality Disorder Information</a> --</font></td></tr></table><br>
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Taking bribes [05 Jun 2007|09:26pm]
I'm like a whore. I should be doing what I am without insentive. But hey, I need the money.
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[01 Jun 2007|07:27pm]


It's a rainy day. The nice kind.
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[01 Jun 2007|07:27pm]
1. admit you are WRONG about EVERYTHING.

2. To be able to say....in everything...whether success, or failure...I Tried

3.
Fly first class

4.
go on a cruise

5.
speak more than two languages

6.
Work for a cause you believe in

7.
donate blood

8.
break 10 laws in one day

9.
do the splits

10.
Make an original music CD and give its copies to my friends

11.
Catch fireflies in the summer

12. Become a good cook

13. Lose weight and keep it off

14. Get married and start a family

15. Tell a stranger my whole life, leaving out no details

.....TBC
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2DO B4 I DIE [25 May 2007|08:46pm]
1. admit you are WRONG about EVERYTHING.

2. To be able to say....in everything...whether success, or failure...I Tried

3.
Fly first class

4.
go on a cruise

5.
speak more than two languages

6.
Work for a cause you believe in

7.
donate blood

8.
break 10 laws in one day

9.
do the splits

10.
Make an original music CD and give its copies to my friends

11.
Catch fireflies in the summer

12. Become a good cook

13. Lose weight and keep it off

14. Get married and start a family

15. Tell a stranger my whole life, leaving out no details

.....TBC
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You deserve it. [20 Feb 2007|05:07pm]

"Danny is a fuckup loser" Moma says. "He'll never amount to anything."
She lies back down and continues to offer me heaping helpings of "Linda Martin is jealous of me."
I ask her to put herself in Mrs. Martin's position. She says she would do the same thing if someone tried to take away one of her children. She laughs and states that she's a selfish only child and she can't change it. Like she's proud of it or something.

This upsets me. She could change if she wanted. But she doesn't. She likes it and she doesn't care. This..  is so grand. 

I couldn't tell Danny. I can't. I don't want him to feel even more alone in the world. I think a little peice of all of us wants to believe that our parents love us and wants what's best for us. Unconditional love. I want to believe it so much. That I almost do. I guess that's enough.

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Owe [06 Feb 2007|09:19pm]
Well this is a familiar frame.
Bent over so the headphones don't slip off.
Typing like a monkey into a glowing box 
Giving or taking life?
Does it matter?
My neck hurts.
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A small note on love [05 Feb 2007|11:19pm]
Love is not two people together and happy always.
Love is she's dead because she couldn't bear hurting him as much as she did; while he's crying himself to sleep because he could have kept her alive. And he's clinging for dear life to the shirt she left behind, soaking it in tears, shaking uncontrolably. And she's in his room, crying even worse than him because he never knew how she felt.
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